(Para Carmen y Chencho)
Destiny is all arronad me.
I get all the signals
by I don´t have the code
to get them open.
I use to love magic,
But now, it seams
to have Became
Inevitable in my life.
And is not always nice,
And I´m not sure I can
respect the pain
and if I do not
I just will loose the game.
-Big time-
Of not fullfilling my Destiny.
My Destiny. Every day
speaks clearly to me
but… What does «she» means?
what does «It» means?
what does «he» means?
No clues. Is a binary world
of yes, or
not, because
I´m a coward.
So,
black and white
are the same thing.
So
good and evil
are the same thing.
So
pain and happiness
are the same thing.
Gray Time and Space
is filled by them,
shifting the shades just
one way o the other.
Am I ready to accept it?
Not sure. Not sure at all
even if it seams it was all written
before I even got
the first drop of milk
from my mother breast.
2.41. Back in Tossa.
Did a long travel on
Space,
Time,
and Learning.
Just I don´t know what I
just learned.
I never wilI…
That was the deal:
I have to cope with Mistery,
I always new I had
to get into the forest
but… I was born
a coward.
Can`t even write.
Can´t even re-write it.
Can´t even even
write anymore…
My heart is swelling
Too much pain.
That… that is all it is.
Fear.
AFTHER WORDS
Something fell from somewhere up in the building
Hit the man,
Broken lives got broken bones
Pain get a fresh paint on pain.
It is all what it is.
Look not further. Just wait your time.